Friday, June 26, 2009

When I saw that there was a listing of the world's healthiest countries, I was curious to see which ones they were. However, when I found out I was a little bit disturbed to say the least. I was relieved to find that I was not the only one feeling this way. But still. They say they ranked every country based on Forbes' access to drinking water and sanitation, infant mortality rates, etc. Oh, and by looking further, I also found the world's most overweight countries.

Anyway, on to why it irritates me. They named 15 of the so called healthiest countries. They are:
1. Iceland
2. Sweden
3. Finland
4. Germany
5. Switzerland
6. Australia
7. Denmark
8. Canada
9. Austria
10. Netherlands
11. United States
12. Israel
13. Czech Republic
14. Spain
15. France

Most obese or overweight countries and here as it was not done by forbes, you get 20
1. Nauru
2. Federated States of Micronesia
3. Cook Islands
4. Tonga
5. Niue
6. Samoa
7. Palau
8. Kuwait
9. United States
10. Kiribati
11. Dominica
12. Barbados
13. Argentina
14. Egypt
15. Malta
16. Greece
17. New Zealand
18. United Arab Emirates
19. Mexico
20. Trinidad and Tobago

I realize these polls were conducted by two different associations. But at the same point in time, doesn't it seem contradictory that the United States would make both lists? And also, while I wouldn't expect to see Asians in the groupings of overweight countries, it seems that when Forbes conducted their so called research, they only studied the Western half of the world. Maybe they should have stated that when they created the listing. I mean yes, I would love to say Korea should be #1, but I know it's not entirely true with all factors included. But if you look at the life expectancy in countries like Korea, you look at the social health programs they have in countries like Japan, and you look at the prevalence of greater education in general, which includes doctors and others. If you just look at the general eating habits and weight trends among other things, certain Asian countries should be on that list! But if you notice, it's rather convenient where all the countries lie. I mean, they claim the czech republic is up there and there are no really Asian countries included. I'm not asking them to say that Vietnam is it or anything, just to actually give an unbiased evaluation that includes the real facts!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

I Do Not Forgive You, But I Will Forget

I want you to know that while I do not forgive you, because forgiving would imply that what you did was somehow acceptable, somehow okay, somehow not as hurtful as it is. I will forget you. I will forget about you entirely. I do not forgive you for forgetting me, I do not forgive you for letting me get lost in your world that was taken up entirely by other things, all of which were apparently more important. I don't forgive you for telling me that I can't be trusted because I said one thing I wasn't supposed to when I was 5. I don't forgive you for assuming that I will mess up every major deal because I didn't look into things with a phone bill when I was 18. I don't forgive you for assuming I was too stupid to get into a state college. I don't forgive you for forcing me to stay in the same high school when I asked you not once, but repeatedly, to transfer me out, because there was a high suicide rate, I had no friends going there, and I knew everything that was coming. I do not forgive you for conveniently forgetting about all the things that happened to me because you were unwilling to budge. I do not forgive you for never admitting when you were wrong. I do not forgive you for always seeing everybody else as better than me and more of a priority than me, and I do not forgive you for letting me fall between the cracks every time and choosing anybody else, even somebody you didn't even know when there was a choice. I do not forgive you for always taking the other side. I do not forgive you for fucking up my life and then taking no blame assuming it must have been anyone but you. But I will forget you. I will walk away, and I will never think about you ever again, I will never give you credit, I will never again blame you because you will not be a part of my life ever again, because otherwise, I don't think I can stand it and I don't think I will make it out alive.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

A $4000 Tip

Now I really wish I had served Johnny Depp back when I was a waitress. I worked at a cheap Chinese restaurant granted. But I gave every customer the same great quality of service, catering to each customer's needs, whether I knew they were going to give me a good tip or thought that they were the type to say how great you were and then leave you shit for tips. But Depp left some lucky waiter a $4,000 tip! I mean I'm sure it meant nothing to him, he just felt the inclination to drop it that day. But holy crap! I guess he went in at 11:30 and they didn't leave till 2:30. The tip was $4400, so 20% would be $880, still a sizable tip, but standard for any amount, 20%. But wow, $4000! Honestly, that would be a good celebrity experience. I just hope for the waiter he wasn't a jerk before he gave that tip.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Johnny Depp

I'll be honest. I loved it when Johnny Depp decided to play in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. In fact, I've loved a great number of his roles for varying reasons. And now he is playing a part in Alice In Wonderland. He is the Mad Hatter. He has played some crazy roles to be sure, and this is one of them. In the picture they have now shown, I definitely don't necessarily recognize him. But I am thrilled and I will definitely be one of the first out to see that movie! Still, my favorite movie of his remains Blow.

Monday, June 22, 2009

ADD and just not paying attention

I understand that certain disorders like ADD are frustrating for the individual suffering from them. Not with ADD in particular, but in general I understand from experience. But sometimes, it's a matter of sucking it up and doing something about it, and it honestly annoys me when people make no effort at all to do that.
My roommate is the particular one that annoys me right now. I mean she's nice and all. But she says she suffers from ADD. I've known people with ADD. when it's real light, they learn to actively discipline themselves and may never know they actually have it. When it's in the middle, they generally know, but again take extra steps to discipline themselves. When it's really severe, there are medications. Every time I talk to her, I have to repeat myself at least 5 times, and I'm actually not exaggerating is the sad part. And even after repeating myself at least 5 times, usually more, she still doesn't have it. And half the time, she starts saying what what I don't get it after the first 2 words. So that tells me that it's not ADD, she just doesn't listen. She does this to everyone yes, but it's annoying. And while I have extra patience for this kind of complication, I honestly don't think she has it, I think she just doesn't take the time to listen and pay attention.
Frankly, if it is that bad, you deal with it and take something and go to therapy or something to learn more about greater habits. But she refuses to take medication. So realistically, I have reason to be annoyed. It's one thing if you are trying to help yourself and it's taking time. Oh, and then she's literally going bankrupt and she says well there's nothing more I can do. But she works only part time, and then she's always out buying coffee at starbucks, buying her friends things, etc. So it's like yes, there is something you can do. I've tried to explain to her the concept of writing everything down, and it just doesn't stick.
And the other day, I specifically stopped her, told her to listen, because I was a little bit irked that for the umpteenth time, she called me to say well you want to go to coffee later, and then she never called back. She said oh well it was last minute and then I knew you wouldn't get there on time and then we'd be leaving. So I said well is there a reason that you couldn't text me when somebody texts you? And then she went into how she was so busy and she couldn't. It takes 2 seconds to text and say we're going. But she got into a rant about well I will just invite you next time. That was when I told her to stop and listen, because it's not about going to coffee. I was simply asking that she not call and ask me in advance, because every time it seems that she forgets later when it's time to actually go, so instead call me when they are actually going or if she forgets then it makes no difference. But she was so stuck in the idea that even after I told her to specifically listen, which you would think would suggest that somebody should listen for 2 seconds and actually concentrate if they have a hard time and actually try to process it, she literally did not process a single word of it. So I am a little bit annoyed right now.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Drawing A Line Between Your Spouse And Your Work

They say that your spouse cannot testify against you, that's obvious. But if you are in any given field and happen to disclose certain types of sensitive information to your spouse, it could still land you in the hot pot. In particular, one Sandra Fernandez married a defense lawyer. she worked in the Brooklyn District Attorney's office as a prosecutor, and on several occasions over a few months, she went in and requested confidential criminal history checks on various people she claimed to be investigating for assault. But she was actually requesting those for her then boyfriend, the defense attorney who is now her husband. she essentially illegally accessed these files, and he effectively used them to win quite a few of his cases. She was of course busted, disbarred, and underwent 5 years probation. Ah the stupid things we do for love.

If you were in the same company, sharing sensitive information while your spouse was not supposed to know that particular detail, you could easily be fired. if you are a therapist sharing details of your clients' sessions with your spouse, they could sue you. Actually, I've known some therapists who obviously did, their spouses made it obvious and even in some ways disclosed those stories they had only told their therapist, and as far as I'm concerned, they should have been sued and lost their licenses among various other things. In those cases, some of the spouses were house moms or dads, and in most cases their career choice had no connection, but they obviously didn't know how to keep their mouths shut. it's one thing to tell your spouse details with no names or indications of who it is about. it's quite another to bluntly disclose confidential information to your spouse or anyone else, whether they happen to have a big mouth or not.

Still in terms of related careers, it sometimes surprises me the people that come together. For example Mary Matlin Republican and James Carville Democrat, both highly influential in their worlds. But apparently, they fell in love, and Matalin has pointed out the true point of "Just because he thinks wrongly doesn't mean he's not smart." Now it would be great if they could agree that the other might be right, but that's better than most could do or would do.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

The Asian Eye Test

Now I hope I got the image up right. But just incase I didn't, and there's a fair chance of that, the link where I found this is http://cakalusa.xanga.com/704930498/item/

But anyway, hopefully it's up there. But when I first saw this sucker, I saw a title, so yes, I did have my angry assumption moment being an Asian myself of what are they talking about the "Asian Eye Test" and pull back your eyes like an Asian if you can't see it. Stupid right? Not so stupid. I didn't see it at first. I just thought it was weird. But I thought I'd give this "Asian eye test" a try. You would think that I would have seen it with my eyes as it is. But apparently, they're too big or something. Mine are on the bigger side, but still. Anyway, I only had to do a little bit of pulling, like putting my fingers at each end and applying a bit of pressure little bit of pulling. It actually works that way. So I guess I'm entertained.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Arrested Overseas

North Korea. they have let people in very rarely, and when they did, they very tightly controlled what they saw, what they did, etc. There were some reporters that snuck into those groups, and there was a big stink. Anyway, there have been quite a few horrible things going on in North Korea, and nobody does anything about it, because it's not affecting them, so what do they care how many human rights violations there are or how crazy he is or anything. Obama is sounding like he is going to stop placating North Korea's fits. But who knows if he'll actually do anything.

Anyway, there were two reporters, Laura Ling and Euna Lee who somehow got into North Korea. I don't remember how, I don't remember why. But they were arrested, and they were sentenced to 12 years in hard labor camps for illegal entry and hostility toward north Korea. that's realy the charges. Now Laura Ling is the sister of Lisa Ling, who I remember from way back in the day, Channel 1 in high school and junior high. She went in with a group let in very exclusively, and they got out. But the horror of those camps is so bad, it's only in your worst nightmares that most imagine it, and yet we do nothing. They are talking about dispatching Lisa Ling to try to save them. But I mean really, most Americans think it doesn't affect them. But those are Americans over there, being trapped in a work camp, and they are not the only ones undergoing crap like that. But maybe it's just the fact that they're Korean, that they're Asian, that they have Asian names, that they're not white that makes most people not care.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Headphones while driving

Stupid drivers piss me off. People who talk on their cell phones piss me off. Practically nobody can do it with a cell phone, a lot of people can't do it with a hands free device, and some people just can't drive either way. That's life right? But the other day, I saw this 80 some odd year old man driving along with these huge silver bose headphones covering both ears! Are you kidding me? I mean if you're 80 some oddish and you can drive, good for you, great for you. But even if you're 20 or 40 and you are a great driver on a normal basis, there is no reason for you to be wearing headphones. with those big headphones, it blocks your view when you turn around to check your blindspot, it makes you oblivious to many sounds around you, and honestly speaking, whatever you're listening to on those headphones could be played on your radio or something else that does not require headphones! The fact that he kept going up and down in speed between 65 and 75 and swerving to either side of the lane only made it worse. But honestly, when some cop told me it was illegal to wear headphones while driving, I thought he was joking, not because why would they make it illegal, but more why would they need to make it illegal. it's common sense, and there's no reason to wear them at all, especially when you're the only one in the car! I mean kids wear headphones now, because some cars have DVD players, and they sit in the backseat, watch movies, and you don't have to listen to their movie blasting on the radio. Instead, you get your music or peace and quiet and they shut up and watch their video or movie. But again, no reason for you to be wearing headphones ever when you are driving!

Monday, June 15, 2009

Return The Favor

I'll be honest. Israel has done nothing for us. this sounds harsh, but it's true. America saves their butt every step of the way, and they do squat to repay the united states. Instead, they go out and act like bullies. Granted, the other side isn't always right, certainly not. But it doesn't excuse the crap they do, it doesn't even start. They're like a little chihuahua barking up a storm, because there's a rottweiler behind them that they know will attack virtually on command.

Personally, I don't think we should be particular friends with Israel. We shouldn't be enemies by any means. But we shouldn't go rushing in to save them every time they get in a fight or pick a fight wtih the Palestinians or anyone else for that matter. If someone else attacks them, well we should give them the attention we give everybody else, like North Koreans for example. they're having some pretty serious problems to say the least. So if Israel is in trouble, maybe we should give them the same courtesy we issue the innocent North Korean citizens, or maybe, just maybe if they pick their own fights, we should let them fight it out for themselves.

But realistically speaking, that's not going to happen. So at the very least, Obama can start asking them to return the favors, as much as they can anyway.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

The Wrong Day For Cabelas And Sudden Rain Storms

Apparently I picked the wrong day to go to Cabelas. I was going to get a Father's day gift, because I'm stupid and couldn't remember if Father's day was this Sunday or next Sunday. So I go in to get a simple gift card, which you only have to go strait to the register for. He likes various things, but with fishing and hunting, we know nothing about it. so we always get the wrong thing, and I'm only spending about $50, not enough to get a really great gun or anything. But I walk in, and there are lines every which way. they have cashiers at every station including those for customer service taking customers, and there are huge lines everywhere. I literally waited and I timed it for 20 minutes in one line, and it was the shorter line of the many just to get a stupid gift card. and to add insult to injury, it's not till next sunday.

either way, it wasn't way hot, and my dog who was going to socialization class, spent that time waiting in his kennel in the car, and I rolled with windows down. Luckily, it didn't rain while I was in there. after socialization class, it suddenly started pouring, and I had gone to work. I had to drive the 15 minute drive back home, which obviously took longer than normal, with rain pouring down, wind blowing me over to the side, and water rushing up, even at one point hitting my car in a huge wave that made a huge bump against my car. There were no other cars near me, or else I would've thought that they had hit me. And then I had to run out to find all the dogs and get them into the garage. The two bigger dogs came right in. But after yelling for a while, I had to run out and find my little daschund, cowering out there in his dogloo, because he was rightly afraid of all the rain. Once he saw me, he was ready to make the run. But I don't think he could hear me with all the rain and his dogloo is on the other side of the house, so he couldn't see me.

Friday, June 12, 2009

World Of Warcraft Nerds

I don't know how this happens. But apparently the guys I work with have decided that they love their computers at work so much that they have to get together for a LAN party or whatever they call it and yell, scream, and play World of Warcraft. I am here late working granted, and maybe nobody should be working this late. but at the same time, really? I mean what would they do if they had to use separate places to play? They've said they would have to get microphones like they did on South Park. But there is a line between occasional gamer and full on nerd!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Fmylife.com

I am in love with fmylife.com and whoever created it. it cracks me up and makes my life seem a little better in those down times. My favorites lately, there was one saying something like we bought my brother a hamster, because he doesn't have friends and we thought it would teach him about compassion and socialization. I walked into his room to find the hamster hanging from the ceiling, turns out there's a reason my brother has no friends. I knew that sociopaths start from an early age, but that's just flat out disturbing. But nonetheless, it's one of those gawking horror reactions that I have to share it with everybody.

Then there's the guy who apparently was counting on money to pay off his student loans because he helped his mom to write her will. but she added in her own note later and the proprietor read it to the whole family. Apparently, mom was the only one who knew, but she basically put in there and this person gets nothing because he's gay. That's definitely a way to come out of the closet.

and of course there's the guy that saw a homeless guy on the bench and thought it would be funny to throw a rock at him. who does that? I don't care who he is, leave the guy alone, if for nothing else because you don't know how any given person might react, but hopefully because you actually have compassion for other people. This particular homeless person proceeded to chase him for 6 blocks with a brandished knife. Like I said, you can't predict their reaction and while compassion is great, the punishment is obviously more effective in some cases. But this is why I love fmylife.com

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

James Von Brunn, the Holocaust museum shooter

They focus on the fact that James Von Brunn is now in critical condition, that he pulled into a handicap spot in front of the Holocaust museum in DC with a gun, ready to die. They focus on the fact that he had spoken out saying that Obama was somewhat of a Manchurian candidate and talking about all the things the Muslims were supposedly going to do to innocent people, killing various people and so on and so forth. they talked to his ex wife who basically said that his hate consumed him and it was his whole life, which was why she divorced him. he spent time in jail in 1983 for some pretty violent charges, and he is now 88 years old. He has been well known throughout his life however for his racist beliefs.

But it seems that many outlets have completely forgot about the man who died. Apparently he was black. they seem to have forgotten entirely about all the children that were in the museum. and as for the handicap spot, if he were going to kill people, why would he park far away, even if he didn't have a pass? the way i figure it, he was on a suicide mission. why are we glorifying it by even covering it in the first place? I know, hypocritical here. But you get my point. this guy wanted attention and was going on a suicide mission and instead of paying attention to the victims, to the tragedy, we focus all of our energies on him.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Oprah's Health Claims

It's amazing. Oprah is great, don't get me wrong. But sometimes, she gives some bad advice. She gives some unfounded health advice, as does CNN among others. For one thing, she recommended hoodia. Every study on hoodia has failed to prove that it works as an appetite suppressant, in essence telling you that it doesn't work and doesn't suppress appetite.
In addition, though the top 10 superfoods are great, I don't know that they have all the benefits that are claimed. I mean a lot of companies obviously blow it out of wack, and they claim various benefits such as treating cancer. Oprah never said that as far as I'm aware. But at the same point in time, to say that acai is the #1 superfood or otherwise some of the things that have been said on Oprah is irresponsible in many ways.

And with Suzanne Somers saying that she takes around 60 vitamins per day and rubs progesterone on her arms, that's risky too. There are some experts that are suggesting it could be potentially harmful rather than helpful. In short, though I love Oprah, I don't think that things she features as health supplements should always be considered seriously, especially when the science not only does not back it up, but even contradicts it.

Monday, June 8, 2009

The Sickness Of Me

It's sad really. I know I'm cursed. I know there is something about me that people don't see unless I let them in, and then I don't even know what it is that they see. I just know the reaction that happens every time. Sometimes it takes a day, sometimes it takes years, it just depends. But they always see it, and the reaction is always the same. In a way, I really should just save myself the pain of it all. I mean if it were people I didn't care about seeing it from the beginning, I would get used to it and just accept it. But when it's the people you finally let in, that makes a lot harder.

And while I want to avoid it in my own ways, when I get to that point with someone, there's a part of me that wants to protect them from it. I mean just the way they feel, it's like they're not just betrayed, they're completely crushed. and then I never know exactly why, because they can't stand to even look at me. It's so instantaneous. One day we're fine, we're great, and the next when they do look at me, the pain in their eyes is horrible, and they can't stand to look at me 9 times out of 10. And whether you should hate them for it or not, it seems like you just feel this love for them still that keeps you being the fool. I don't understand it. But it led me to break up with a guy I care about, because I don't want him to go through that. He was in such pain over something that was still big, but smaller, and he would go through so much more. I can't stand the idea of him being in that much pain........and that is the sickness of me.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Sotomayor rules in favor in man's sexual harassment suit

Apparently, there was a cop who sued in New York, because after he got hurt, he was transferred to a desk job. that's not why he sued. He was later transferred back out into the field, where his supervisor proceeded to call him not a "real man", a "manly man", and actively told him to "toughen up." he was forced to do heavy lifting despite his injury and disability, and he is apparently a small, nonmuscular man. this cop has stated that this behavior injured him again and he was forced out of his job. apparently it isn't illegal to discriminate against somebody because they are gay. so in his first court date, it was dismissed, because the judge decided that all of these statements were based on the fact that he was gay. I wouldn't call it that to say the least! it was basically a suit saying that he had been treated badly and verbally harassed for not fitting the standard of the general sex. Apparently Sotomayor agreed with him, as i do. the fact that he was harassed on a daily basis with commments of that nature and forced to perform work that he actively was told not to do by doctors among others due to a previous injury, which also happened to be sustained on the job. That is discrimination and that is something he should sue over. So while one other judge was worried about ruling in his favor, something about it expanding the laws against discrimination, how can you not rule in his favor realistically?

Thursday, June 4, 2009

OCD And Addiction

It's contradictory really. Most people know one or the other. They don't know both. But I know about how drugs feel and how OCD feels. I've suffered from OCD for something like 20 years now, maybe 19 years to be technical, but close enough. And I had my days as a kid where I wasn't too bright in that area, or maybe I was just an angry and belligerant teenager. I really couldn't say which. Anyway, the strange thing is, they're not the same to me at all. You would think that OCD would demonstrate a tendency toward addictive habits and behaviors that don't always make sense, but are repeated anyway out of some strange need. But not really. I always thought so before I hit drugs and before I really thought about it. But though I know that everybody says this, and most people are full of crap when they say it, I've never really been addicted to drugs or anything like that in my life. Yes, I am severely OCD. but it doesn't translate into addictive behaviors for me. And to be honest, I am one of the few people that can say I was never addicted. I had fun with it yes. Sometimes I did more, sometimes less, and I can't say during those lesser times, even at the beginning, that I ever missed it. it was fun, it was nice, my friends and I had a great time. But I never needed it. And when I decided I was done, I was done. I just stopped one day. I never suffered a physical reaction to the sudden stop, which I guess is really unusual, I had no mental desire for it, nothing. I would assume the lack of physical response is more unusual. But either way, whatever the normality, that's how it went for me. My OCD is an entirely different beast. So I can't really say that they're the same thing at all. In fact, I can positively say they're not.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

It could've been family

This is sad. I somehow ended up related to pretty much everybody in a small town made up of about 1000 people total. Their last high school graduating class was 50 people. But anyway, they are all what you might call rednecks, and I'm honestly not sure how I somehow ended up related to them, actually Iknow it's adoption. Anyway, I heard about this guy the other day down in Arkansas. He decided that in this tough economy, he would steal power. So what does he do? He takes his jumper cables, a metal ladder, and props it up against the power line. He climbs up there, puts the jumper cables on there to steal power, and ends up getting electrocuted and falling 30 feet to break his back. And though at first I thought only in the South, the more I thought about it, the more I realized that could have actually been one of my relatives. They don't live in the South, just a small town in the southern area of the state. But from renaming a dog Damnit because they were mad at it to going "bunny thumping" for their main source of entertainment to more serious things, it really could have been any of my 1000 or so relatives in that town.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Abortion Doctor Killed

They recently had a man shoot an abortion clinic doctor in his church. There were protests surrounding the clinic, and I'm sure that there's a chance that some of his fellow worshippers were in those crowds or at least disagreed with his career. But the fact that some man felt the need to shoot him in his church. And than an active anti abortionist actually came out and said that he got what he deserved and he was glad this man had been shot and killed.

It's one of those things that you may not agree with what someone does in their lives. I don't agree with the things that a lot of people do, and I find some of them to be quite disturbing to say the least. But that doesn't mean you go out and kill them. I mean even if it's a serial killers, if you know what they're doing, where they are, you don't go after them. You call the police and let them handle it. And what he was doing is not illegal. It's a debatable subject, but not illegal. I think it's tragic that he was killed at all, let alone where he thought he was safe in his church in front of other congregation members. And I definitely don't think it's right to glorify his death in any way. It should also be noted that many of his patients willingly came forward to defend his name and testify to the fact that in their time of crisis, he was there, he listened to their stories, he considered all the facts, and he helped many in situations where they felt there was no other way. He was described as compassionate among other things, and frankly, I don't think he was wrong.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Religious Freedom In School Settings

At Eastern Michigan University, they have now expelled a student from their counseling, which I assume means their psychology or social work program because she apparently thinks homosexuality is an abnormal and unacceptable behavior that can be counseled out of somebody. There is now controversy surrounding it, because people believe it's religious freedom.

To some degree, it is religious freedom. But at the same point, in any medical field, there is some degree of agreeance to do no harm. I know plenty of practicing therapists who do not themselves religiously condone homosexuality or think it to be something that people should do. But at the same point in time, they do not follow the mindset that you can counsel it out of somebody. They take not a different, but a certain mindset in work accordingly.

They do this, because every major study has found that when you try to convince somebody not to be gay using therapy, it has an extremely negative and harmful effect. People actually incur psychological damage from these processes, whether they are willing participants in the therapy or it is mandated by family or other authorities. So that violates the very basic code of ethics in any medical field of any kind.

In short, while it is not okay to violate a person's religious rights by terminating them for what they believe, there is a line. In certain fields of work, there are certain rules and certain definitions. For example, if you have a history of committing violent acts against others, any medical school worth its salt is at least going to think twice about taking you on as a student and might expel you if you lie about it to get in. Likewise, if you are going to practice in a way that is contrary to studied and verified facts, which would in fact due harm to the people you are supposed to be helping, than there is no school that should be taking you into that particular program or for that matter keeping you in that particular program. This is a simple fact of life. So no, I don't think this is a violation of her religious freedom.

Friday, May 29, 2009

12 Hour Day!

with a 12 hour day now behind me, or maybe it was 11, I'm not really thinking all that well, I find myself just wanting to go home and go to bed. but I realize my dogs will not be happy with me should I pull that one.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Things I Want In A Guy

They say you should never make a list for the things you want in a guy or a girl, whichever you are actually attracted to. But we all do. We all have our shallow lists, and some of us have our non shallow lists. I have both, and I'm okay with that. But I still have them, and I'm holding onto them, because at some point you have to have standards. So here I go.
Shallow list
1. No man hands-this is not determined by the care they take care of it. a manicure is not going to fix man hands. you are born with the hands you have, very simple.
2. he has to have great eyes-i am an eyes girl. if you have a great face with your sunglasses on and then you take them off and....what happened! that doesn't work for me
3. no hairy monkey man-hair disgusts me in a way I can't even begin to describe. they say hairy man have their benefits. Frankly, I don't want to be laying there in a bed of hair!
4. a butt-i'm not talking about a great butt or anything special. but he does have to have a butt. It's like watching king of the hill with hank hill and he literally has no butt, that's really bad
5. Fashion sense-no make up. that is one thing, no skinny jeans. but a guy needs to have a style of his own. without that, he's just another guy.

non shallow list
1. he has to know how to cook-i don't know how to cook. well actually i do, i just don't do it. so if he doesn't know how to cook, we're all screwed! No, really, I only cook very specific things, and there's a 50/50 chance he's going to like the things I cook. So it's a good fallback plan.
2. Must love animals-I'm not going to specify one animal, just animals in general. I like to keep dogs, snakes, cats, hamsters, ferrets, fish, all sorts of stuff. though I particularly like the ones i can touch. Horses are really fun too. if he doesn't like animals or moreover hates animals, i don't think he would actually enjoy being around me, because I'd be too much of an animal person
3. Compassion-compassion for animals, compassion for other people, compassion for children. essentially what I am saying here is he has to care. This also extends to treating people of other races, other religions, other this, other that equally. If he doesn't care, it tends to happen that he tends to see certain things and certain even people as "below" him, and he treats them accordingly. It's a scary thing when you become one of the things that is "below" him.
4. Personality-I guess this is a really general thing. But if there's some kind of mystery and yet charm about him and you know there's more to him than you see on the surface, and he has a real personality and not just one he displays because it's convenient, that is a must have.
5. Passion and sexuality-in terms of sex, passion is absolutely necessary. Robotic is not okay! and in terms of life in general, if he has passion for nothing, he cannot have passion for you. he goes through his life in this monotone fashion, and eventually, he figures out that he has been missing something in his life. this leads to a lot of things that no girl wants to deal with and can even tear people apart. it's not fun. but passion is exciting, passion gives him something to work for, something to sacrifice at times for, something to work harder at.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Asian Cartoons?

it's great that they are trying to bring multicultural cartoons to the TV for little kids. But honestly, sometimes I think that it would be better if there were just little white kid cartoons. I don't really think that. But honestly, the cartoons use so many stereotypes and everything, they're like the "family" TV shows of the 50's or maybe it was the 80's that had supposedly multi cultural or non white families as the main characters. They're ridiculous! I mean there's one with shaolin monk or something. I don't know. But the characters are retarded. And there's also a one about cats with owners who happen to be Asian. They have them dressed up in traditional clothing that isn't actually that accurate. Are we as Asians not allowed to exist in modern day in cartoons or something? And are we not allowed to have characters that don't make constant asses of themselves? It's just a thought. But if they did that to white people, it would never stand. But when they do it to us, nobody does anything.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Twitter reality show

I guess Twitter has decided they’re going to make a reality show about the site. It would put ordinary people at the tails of celebrities in a “revolutionary competitive format.” That sounds a little disturbing to me, and apparently Ashton Kutcher and his wife Demi Moore thought the same thing, because they’re threatening to leave Twitter. I thought it was a little bit stupid when Kutcher and CNN had some kind of contest to see who could reach a million followers or something like that first. But it is asking for somebody to attract yet another unnecessary stalker. Now Twitter has definitely become a big part of our society. But for obvious reasons, they should definitely reconsider.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Christian?

I had someone ask me if I was Christian today. I went to church with them when I was on a trip and staying with them, because that’s what you do as a guest. You do small things like that and suck it up. I grew up a Christian yes, but I have nothing to do with it now. But apparently, he was somehow under the impression that I was a strong and valiant Christian. My head is still spinning as to how he came to that conclusion exactly. We had a talk about how I wasn’t, and I heard the standard if you read the bible and really read with your heart or if you go to church or whatnot, then you will see. I can pretty much beat 99% of Christians on that one, having read the Bible 6 different times all the way through, and yes it takes a while, going to church, etc. and I got nothing out of it. I even went in with the whole idea of reading with your heart open and praying and all that as it states in one particular scripture. Nothing. So I guess that whole if you just do this didn’t quite hold up for me. But I am honestly blown away as to how anybody could have thought that I was a Christian. I like to think I’m a good, nice person, and maybe they automatically associate that with being Christian and consider no other possibilities. But really? I mean I am a pro choice, pro gay marriage, pro a lot of things that Christians just aren’t supportive of person in every way. How does that figure?

Friday, May 22, 2009

The Definition of Strong

I used to think that bravery was the absence of fear. After all, if you’re not afraid of anything and you have the drive to help other people theoretically, you would be out there being a “brave” hero theoretically speaking. But the reality is that’s not brave. If you are not afraid of something, you may be doing something good, something heroic. But you think nothing of it, and it’s not really bravery. Bravery is overcoming those fears.I’ve discovered lately that I guess you could say toughness is the same way. Or strength, maybe strength is a better word for it. Anyway, strength is not the absence of hurt, the wall of not feeling anything, etc. When you don’t feel anything, it is more a symptom of severe depression. Feeling nothing, no hurt, no pain, nothing comes after you hurt every day, and it is somehow worse, even though you wouldn’t expect it to be. No, strength is feeling what your mind decides that you are going to feel, granted some people may feel less or at least at a lower intensity. But strength is doing things because you have to and despite the fact that you are hurting, no matter how intense it is. And just like bravery, it is the harder thing to achieve. This because, if you are not hurting, obviously what would you have to overcome. But when you are, you have to step outside it and basically force yourself to go on and be “strong.”

Thursday, May 21, 2009

The Sickness Of Work

It’s sick. In a way, I know that the guy I like respects women who have their own things, who work hard, etc. And I am I guess you could say the modern woman and have a lot of other qualities that I know he likes. But at the same point in time, I work with him. And I find myself working harder, doing more, going beyond what I know I really should for myself or really want to, hoping that he will notice and actually figure out that I am all the things that he describes as the things he wants, that he actually goes after, etc. It’s pathetic really. And I don’t really like feeling this stupid. Granted, I’m making more money for it, which is a nice bonus. But I don’t like being this girl that does things so the guy will notice her. It makes me honestly look like a bloody moron. And the big reality is there is a certain surety that I am a moron.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Early Weened Puppies

I have now seen for the first time in my life weened puppies at the age of 1 week. Essentially speaking, the puppies were too strong and killing the mother, so on, so forth, and they came from a 6 pound mom. So that’s really bad. They shouldn’t be weened till a later time anyway. But apparently, it was really bad. These little babies were eating out of a bottle, being taken care of by people. We did that with my sister’s rabbit’s babies as a kid, but only because she pretty much tried to kill them all. My sister just has some kind of crazy effect on animals I’ve never understood. But with these little puppies, it was sad, especially the first 5 weeks or so. They had to wait until she dried up so they wouldn’t really nurse or anything. But every time they were being fed, you would hear her crying in the other room. She would literally try to get to them every chance she got, some kind of motherly instinct. And it didn’t die down. She went on for 5 weeks, even after her milk had dried up, trying to get to these babies, clean them up, nurse them, take care of them at all times. After 5 weeks were up and they were about 6 weeks old, they were apparently at an age where she started playing with them, they stopped trying to nurse, and everything was all good. But up until that point, she literally cried. Sad things. I have to wonder if she would’ve had the same kind of reaction had she gone through a false pregnancy.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I Blame Myself

And after I have been really good about avoiding tickets and avoiding cops for about 6 months now, I got a ticket. It’s a miserable thing, and it was a bad situation too. I’m a little irritated. I should’ve been prepared yes. But at the same point in time, the road changes by 10mph in the speed limit because of a construction zone, and he basically cited me right in that zone. And then he speaker-thinged me to move my car up, because apparently it wasn’t far enough off the road for him. Not very nice. Mostly, I don’t think it’s fair to do that right when the speed changes. But I guess they get a lot of tickets that way. I mean I was going 5 over right before, and then it turned into 15 over of course adding the 10 mph speed difference.
I figure I’ll just go to traffic school, because he did put that in the allowance. But still, I think it should be more lenient for the simple reason of the change right there, or he should park a little farther out so that people can adjust to the changing speed at a more efficient rate. That is just my thought on the whole thing.
But at the same point in time, I now blame myself. They had no left turn signs, partly because there is only one lane in construction zones either ways. But people kept stopping all traffic so they could make an illegal left turn, and one guy was so stupid and in such a hurry that he almost got himself creamed by a semi. So I called the local police to let them know you know maybe you should patrol this area for that, because obviously it is a real risk. I drive that road every day getting to work, and now I have basically cursed myself, because every day I see at least 3 cops along that road lasering to see if people are speeding. And every day I kick myself.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Outsiders

It’s interesting. I grew up, granted I moved around to a lot of different cities, but they were almost all in the same state. All of one of them were in the same state. And yet I managed to turn out to be a person who doesn’t fit in, who is the exact type of person who must have immigrated in, who doesn’t fit in anywhere in the state, and who really shouldn’t live in the state in simple terms. I was raised in a family that was pretty conventional and expected to the state.
I guess this is just some kind of indicator that genetics have something to do with it. I’m adopted, and my parents fit in fine, always have. My sisters fit in fine, always have. My brothers fit in fine, always have. I’m the only one who seems to be extremely misplaced to say the least! Nobody here can decide where I should be from, because people here have really only ever lived here, and they didn’t really get a fair or right idea from visiting other states or other countries. I’m definitely not typical for my race or for that matter for my gender of that race.
But we know one thing for sure. I should be in a more liberal state and actually a more green state. That is something we’ve all agreed on at this point. My uncle from Oregon actually decided when I was just a kid that he could see me living in New York City. I guess I was more business minded or something back then. I don’t know exactly what it was. But he had that decided from the time I was about 5, which is funny. But he’s always been a pretty perceptive guy, so whatever. And as it turns out, apparently my body also wants me to move elsewhere, being that I live in an extremely dry state. Apparently I suffer from the skin type that basically develops weird little quirks and deformities living in a dryer area. You can use some pretty intensive lotions to keep it at bay. But the only way to really get rid of it is to live in a humid area.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Antisocial

My brother’s dog is officially anti social. I forgot to pick her up from daycare yesterday, and then I got home. Then I had to run over, apologizing as I went, just before 10 PM. I had dropped her off, and they didn’t answer. I didn’t see them. But I figured I would just let her out and we would be all good. So I let her out, and I get there, and they say oh no she’s not here. So I asked well did my brother pick her up, which would be really unusual. They then said they’d been out there and not seen her all day. So here I am thinking she’d run off. We went out to call for her, and she took a minute to come running up. But she’d been hiding from all of the other dogs all day. What an anti social little dog.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Empathy In Judging

I find it interesting. Obama has stated that he wants a new justice to replace Justice David Souter that will display empathy. And for some reason, it is angering GOP’s. Why? I mean really, why? It is a justice’s job to interpret the law, yes. But if we wanted machines, then we would not have justices, but machines making the decision. If a person remains unmoved and cannot display empathy, then they have a problem as a human being. I mean we’re not asking for a judge that will stop mid trial and start bawling or anything, just feeling. But in Obama’s terms, it is actually the fact that he’s asking for a judge that can think outside the obvious definitions of the law. He wants a judge who can see the law from more than one perspective. After all, isn’t that how we eliminated slavery and segregation among other things?

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Antisocial dogs

My brother’s dog is officially anti social. I forgot to pick her up from daycare yesterday, and then I got home. Then I had to run over, apologizing as I went, just before 10 PM. I had dropped her off, and they didn’t answer. I didn’t see them. But I figured I would just let her out and we would be all good. So I let her out, and I get there, and they say oh no she’s not here. So I asked well did my brother pick her up, which would be really unusual. They then said they’d been out there and not seen her all day. So here I am thinking she’d run off. We went out to call for her, and she took a minute to come running up. But she’d been hiding from all of the other dogs all day. What an anti social little dog.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

MILF

My mom has never been, will never be a MILF. I’m glad for that in a lot of ways, because that would just be innately disturbing, at least to me. I mean one of my guy friends has a mom who is a MILF. When I first met her, I thought she was his older sister, when we were in high school. All his other guy friends thought the same thing when they first met her. And all of the girls of course, we all thought she was, and we always thought she was so pretty, and we were jealous. But no, she was his mom, which was so weird. He was cute too though, so no wonder. But honestly, if my guy friends told me that my mom was a MILF, I might throw up a little bit. They might do it just to mess with me because they might find it entertaining. But with my mom, they wouldn’t mean it. But really, I have to wonder sometimes what it’s like when your mom is a MILF. Granted, I’ve never heard of one actually hooking up or anything or basically acting like they might enjoy. But that would be even worse.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Getting Old

Sometimes I think that there is nothing to look forward to in terms of getting old, and actually I don’t just think that, I know that. Luckily, I’m 99% sure I’m never going to reach 50, let alone getting way old. So that’s a plus. But for people who do get old, some people want to get old. That’s the amazing thing. I mean I understand they want to see their grandkids and everything. But at the same point in time, it comes with so many other things. I mean grandkids are great, but not when you really don’t remember them, because you’ve lost it. And all the other health problems that end up with people going into the doctor all the time and ultimately being a burden on the people you love. I don’t know that I could handle all of that. I don’t know that I would want to handle all of that. So I figure it’s probably a good thing I don’t have to think about all this stuff. Even now, my dad is only 55 and already going downhill that way. I don’t think I ever want to be there.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Sunglasses Inside

“I wear my sunglasses at night.” That’s the most retarded song yet one of the most funny I have to say. But I have now come to the point of singing it at one of my coworkers. He has been wearing the most hideous sunglasses, and there are two pairs actually, inside the office! INSIDE! Granted, he has a reason. He was playing basketball and somebody decided to go and try to knock the ball out of his hands. The only problem was they got his eye along the way, and he hasn’t been able to see right since. The doctors have basically said they don’t know how bad the damage is going to be to his sight. But honestly, who does that! Still, he has to protect his eyes from the sun, but inside? It seems a bit excessive to say the least.
We’ve taken it to the entertaining point of calling him by the name of another person who I personally know he does not have a particular affinity for. Someone else actually started that trend, and I was trying to be nice knowing the recent history. So I was saying that’s mean and it doesn’t look that bad.
But truth be told, he actually does look like him in certain ways anyway. He’s not a jerk is the difference. He can be a bit dense. But he’s not rude at all, and harmless. The other guy is a jerk and there’s a reason for the recent history and problems. So it’s really not fair to compare them, even if they do look similar. But the fact that the other guy wears sunglasses inside at all times, which is seriously retarded, and they look alike anyway, it really doesn’t help. But I do feel bad for him. Not only because his eye, but because he looks like a guy he pretty much hates. But it is fun singing a tacky song at him whenever he comes in, even if it’s tacky.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

5 Time Lotto Winner

I don’t even know how you win the lotto once, and it seems like I’ve heard about multiple curses with the lottery. And when you do win, half the time you win $5 or you split the pot in general with a bunch of people. But anyway, one woman in West Virginia won the lotto 5 separate times! How do you do that! Her grand total is $167,600. So it’s not way substantial. But at the same point in time, that’s a lot of money and that’s a lot of times winning the lotto which most are unlikely to win once! I have to wonder is she cheating or what? They call it a streak of luck. But I suspect there is something else to it.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

When You Let Depression get the best of you

What happens when you let depression get the best of you? That’s always a question floating around for some, especially when you’ve let it get the best of you before. Well, actually I shouldn’t say that. For most of us who have suffered from it before, we don’t really let it get the best of us. But it somehow gets us anyway. We suddenly find ourselves curled up in a ball in the dark crying uncontrollably at times and at other times just barely holding ourselves together, if you can call it that. So I guess the better question is, can you really beat depression or is it just a matter of time.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Homosexuality Is Not A Disease

I saw a blog recently that was talking about how you could keep your child from turning to homosexuality. This made me so sick, and I had to wonder if this person, if this individual actually had children and if one of those children had ever come to the conclusion that they were gay.
At this point, I am not gay. But some of my best friends have been, and frankly, some of my closest friends who I share everything with, even basic emotions with, have been, are gay, and I’ve seen some of what they have gone through with their families. It breaks my heart, because I see so many things with them that I would not wish on somebody I hated let alone somebody I care so much about.
I watched my best friend in the world become estranged from his sister. When his father disowned him, it wasn’t such a big deal, because his father had always been a jerk, and he had always known it was coming. His dad was the ultimate homophobe since the time he was born and before. So there was no way he could deny or avoid it. They never had a relationship, and when kids started telling him he was gay, he had a really hard time with it, partly because he was so afraid still at that time what his dad would do if he was gay and if he found out. That is no way for any child to have to live. And then I introduced him to a group of my buddies at the time, all of whom were either gay or bisexual, except for me. So in that regard, I was the minority. But I was always the minority in other ways, so it didn’t particularly bother me. But for him, when he started associating with that group, it was like something clicked with him that he didn’t have to be afraid anymore. He had asked me before that what I would think if he was gay, and I always told him that it wouldn’t make any difference for me on how I felt about him, the love I had for him as my friend, or anything else. His biggest fears I think were one losing his sister, and two losing me as a friend. When he saw that, it was an eye opening confirmation like she’s not just saying this. Unfortunately, when he came out, his sister, the other person he was worried about, wanted nothing to do with him and basically disowned him with the rest of the family. So I became his family in a way, and I was with him while he got back on his feet and figured out what he was going to do.
The point is homosexuality is not a disease, it’s not a curse, it’s not a bad decision you can teach your child and keep them from making. It is the way some people are made, it is a way of being, it is what it is. And I frankly, someone being homosexual does not make them any less of a family member, a friend, someone you love, someone you know. It would just be great if people could remember that every once in a while.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Why Golden Girls Is Genius

The Golden Girls was a genius, or so I thought as a kid. I was an unusual kid yes. I chose to watch all the superhero cartoons, I was a girl. I was in the ages of PeeWee Herman, I watched Sesame Street, loved Mr. Rogers, Barney annoyed and scared me all at the same time, my sister was watching Teletubbies at the age of 12, which to me made her a freak. I never was forced into I Love Lucy, but I liked Golden Girls sometimes. I have a guy friend whose mom loved I Love Lucy, so he has basically memorized every episode. It’s a little weird. But Golden Girls, there was the mother, who was always a bit crazy to say the least. Then there was there others. One was always like a woman who used to be out on the town all the time and still wanted to be, another was just oddly needy, and there was one who I swore was a man. She was tall, had a certain face, certain build, a certain voice among other things, and I swore she was a man. I was 8 when I decided that.
Now apparently some parents decided that they should get rid of Ernie and Bert because they were gay. First off, they were not gay, and second, so what if they were. They had their nighttime songs and it was cute. No child is going to think oh I bet they’re gay from that. Most adults aren’t weird enough to turn that into a sign that they’re gay. Even now, I don’t see it. I mean I know in the 50’s there was drama over sitcoms that showed married couples going to bed and turning off the lights….ooooh. But come on. I think I watched Sesame Street up until I was 5, maybe 6, and that’s a big maybe. I never thought of that, nor did any of my friends. We didn’t even know what gay was!
But anyway, back to Golden Girls. At 8, I had decided that she was a man, her real name is Bea Arthur. Ironically, Golden Girls started up the same year I was born, though late in that year and I was born earlier. But I loved all the characters, and as far as sex changes, I hadn’t quite worked out all the fine mechanics of what that would take and what that would mean. It just was. But if you remember Blanche Deveraux was young, ambitious(sexually speaking), a playgirl of sorts or at least an older playgirl, etc. Rose Nylund had come from Minnesota to Miami, and she was a bit batty. She was apparently supposed to be Norwegian-American from the upper Midwest. Sophia Petrillo was the oldest, the mother of Dorothy, the one I always thought was a man. She was crazy, made some inappropriate jokes at times, but was by far my favorite character. And Dorothy was the tall one who seemed to show a kind of “Jewish humor” from what I am told now. Either way, wrapped all into one show, this was a genius.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Plants Are Cheaper Than Packaging

There are some people who go out and buy all the unhealthy and prepackaged food out there in the name of saving money, and they somehow think that they do. The average American student, single student I might add, from what I am told spends about $100 a month on groceries, and they are spending it all on ramens, mac & cheese, and other prepackaged food that they think saves them money.
On the other hand there’s me. I have no idea how they spend that much money in a single month, being that I buy a 10 pound bag of rice that costs me now $11-$12 every 2-3 months, a large jar of kimchee every month which costs me about $10, a package of this pickled radish every 2 weeks or so that usually costs me around $4, and then various other fruits and vegetables from the grocery store as I feel like it, strawberries in the seasons from Costco which is about $4 for a 4 pound shell, and I got a 4 pound shell of huge grapes a while ago for $3 which was awesome! All in all, I spend give or take $40-$50 a month on groceries, if that. I realize meat is expensive, and occasionally I buy some little fish from the market. But seriously, groceries, especially healthy groceries it seems, are not that expensive. I don’t see why people think they are. My diet stays pretty simple granted and I buy in bulk to some degree. But why not do it with foods that aren’t going to go bad on me or foods that I can eat more quickly if they do.
The way I figure it, you don’t go vegetarian to save money. You start eating sensibly to save money and to save your health and therefore save on long term bills like medical bills. If you just go vegetarian, you could and many do still stick to macaroni and cheese, ramens, and other very unhealthy prepackaged foods. You wouldn’t be saving money, you wouldn’t be healthier, you would just be vegetarian. But fruits and vegetables, though perishable, are some of the cheapest foods out there! Now I wouldn’t recommend eating blueberries all the time or strawberries out of season, because those are some of the ones that really can get expensive. But Costco’s selection especially is excellent. Romaine hearts are extremely cheap for one and you can get plenty of garnishes to add to your salads to keep it interesting.

Friday, May 1, 2009

Something Wrong WIth The Diet Industry

I swear, there is something seriously wrong with the diet pill industry. I mean really. We seem to go through one ban after another, and we never learn anything from it. Some diet pills like Dexatrim. I think that one went through at least 3 different bans! Isn’t that ridiculous? One of them was on something you find in cold medicines. I mean have you ever really lost weight because of a cold medicine? Not having the cold, but the actual medicine? I haven’t. And yes, there were kids I went to high school with who thought it was cool to drink cold medicine. There was no significant differences in weight because of it.
And then there’s ephedra that has come back now. What is wrong with people? I mean if you’re dead, it isn’t really going to matter if you’re skinny. Maybe when they carry your coffin, it would be easier if you were light. But really, they can take your guts out and stuff you like a turkey if they need to in order to make you light. Or they could just cremate you. Either way, it isn’t going to matter what you weight if you’re dead! I just can’t believe people are buying it. I can see stupid greedy companies making it. But you have to be some kind of idiot to buy it.
And then there was the recent bust of all the companies using prescription drugs. They were relaxants, anti psychotics, stuff like that. They weren’t even prescription diet drugs. I was expecting maybe Phentermine or something when I first heard about it. But no, just ones that have no application to weight loss at all or really….just weird.
And now there’s Hydroxycut. On one hand, I think maybe these people are stupid and suffer from Hepatitis but didn’t want to admit it or just didn’t bother connecting the dots. I think maybe they took a whole bottle all at once. I mean Tylenol can technically cause liver damage in excess. But it’s bad, and realistically, the side effects of caffeine are uncomfortable sometimes, but they’re not this bad. I mean heart attack, stroke, renal failure, seizures, and Rhabdomyolysis. I had to look that one up. But it’s basically the rapid and severe breakdown of the skeletal system! And it can cause kidney damage. They say it can happen due to extreme exercise, after a severe trauma to the body(sometimes years later), earthquakes, bombings, anything that destroys muscle tissue pretty much, obstruction of blood supply to the muscles, electrical shock, severe deficiencies of elements such as carnitine, poisons from heavy metals and venoms from snakes, drug abuse. I fail to see any regular diet pill ingredients in there. I mean some of the drugs found in other ones like Starcaps were anti seizure medications. Even those I don’t think cause that kind of reaction, though the seizures and such as a weird and contradictory thing I could see. And yohimbine, I can see a lot of things wrong with that. But they only have it in their Hydroxycut Hardcore or at least they only list it there. All things considered, I don’t trust any diet pill company to really list all the ingredients right now, especially those with a history like Hydroxycut. Oh, and yohimbine doesn’t actually have anything to do with weight loss, that’s the best part of that part. It has just become an interesting world of diet pills.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Modesty

There is so much focus on the modesty of how you dress. They always talk about it, they even create swimming suits, dresses, clothes, etc to be "modest." But a lot of modesty for me has nothing to do with looks, but rather behavior. I mean really. Behavior is important. You could dress like a nun all the time. But if you're self righteous all the time, always focusing on what everybody else is doing wrong, I wouldn't call that modest. Likewise, if you were running around like some girls I've seen, sleeping around or just putting it out there in general, I wouldn't call that modesty. And the fact that in a lot of countries that stress modesty of dress, it's a double standard. The only ones really expected to cover up and dress "modestly" are women. Women have to cover their faces and heads in extreme cases as well as their ankles, everything but the eyes. But men can reveal far more parts of the body and be considered fine. in fact I've never heard of men in any culture being referred to as "modest" or "immodest." So really, it is a double standard that I don't really have respect for and a definition that really only covers the smallest part of what it should be.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Hot Characters I love

1. Edward Cullen
Though the movie did not do the character justice, any girl who has read twilight did not read it to read about Bella. She is the ultimately annoying drama damsel in distress. We read it for Edward, and oh is he worth it when you see his well developed image in any girl’s mind.
2. Batman
I will say this, Christian Slater pulls off an incredibly hot Batman and really brings the character to a certain sexiness of its own. But if Christian Slater were actually that personality and actually had that secret life, he would be sexy instead of just crazy
3. Tyler Durden
Yes, we are all perfectly aware that even in the movie, Fight Club, he is an imaginary character. But even guys gotta admit that Brad Pitt was hot in that and the character incredibly sexy.
4. Hector
If you saw Troy, Eric Bana played an excellent Hector and Brad Pitt was hot too. But in the real story, things were different, characterizations were different, but Hector was still that brave sweet family man with the wife and child who basically had to clean up his brother’s mess
5. Elliott Stabler
This comes from law & order SVU. The guy is attractive, a bit unstable among other things, but attractive, or at least I think so.
6. any character played by John Cusack
And yes I do mean any character. All the ones I’ve seen are hot. What can I say. It is personal bias, yes. But it is what it is.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

I think even poodles hate poodles

I hate poodles, in general, as a breed, and individually, I hate poodles. Why you may ask? Basically because of the owners. There are exceptions to my rule of course. there are always exceptions. But as a general rule, there is something about poodles that makes people get them specifically to treat them like little babies, spoil them, protect them from god forbid having to learn to play with other dogs, etc. So with my baby, who is not a poodle, she plays with another dog, as long as it is not being aggressive or anything and doesn't get the excuse of well they're big! I won't have her turning into a poodle.

That being said, I have seen some pretty funny poodles. One was named Sprite, real funky. I had him be sensitive once, and it was because he had gotten run over and nobody told us beforehand. I'd groomed him for months, so I knew it was unusual to say the least. Poor boy. And then there's one with a mohawk, and finally we have the poodle owner who hates poodles and therefore has her dog shaved like a bichon. the self loather I guess we would call it. That dog is awesome though.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

I Prefer The Company Of Men

The question gets asked, would you feel comfortable having a doctor of the opposite sex examine you. I think I thought about that one for about two milliseconds before deciding, as long as he’s hot. I’m being completely serious here. As long as he is hot, I am perfectly fine with that, because what can I say, I don’t particularly mind it. If it’s another girl, it’s just weird. Guys always have to ask. But it’s just weird. I mean I’m cool if men have to ask before sticking the whatever it’s called up the back of your shirt or whatnot. And frankly, I’m not going to say no, even if he’s not hot, because it’s purely medical stuff. I really only go into the doctor when it’s that bad. Otherwise, I completely avoid him. And I’ve been into the plasma centers a few times. But really, a guy would have to be pretty hot to keep me coming back for self torture of getting needles stuck in me needlessly. The money is not that good, it is when you’re desperate, but it’s not that good that I would unnecessarily put myself through that.
And I do know this from experience. Unfortunately for those who would hope it was just speculation on my part, no. I get some kind of factor out of it when he’s hot. It’s always weird when it’s a girl whether it’s at the plasma place or at the doctor’s office. I don’t know, it’s just weird. This could stem from the fact that I’m more comfortable with men in general. Around girls in general terms, I just feel awkward. They’re generally not as laid back, there’s always some kind of drama, some are too prissy to get down and dirty and play the sport. Girls tend to go behind your back. So I would rather spend my time with guys, and I guess it shows. Sad right? Not really for me. I don’t particularly mind it, and frankly, I quite prefer it in some cases.
In some ways, were I to turn my back to another girl, I might be more afraid of something happening than if it were a guy. I say this, because when guys have a problem with you, in general terms of course, they tend to be more direct than girls about it. So it goes from the figurative to the literal for me.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Puppy's Birthday #4

Yes, I keep track of my dog's birthday. His name is Milo, and he's 4 years old today. He is a black and tan daschund, and tomorrow he's going to his first puppy socialization class. But today, he's getting birthday treatment. He gets to play inside all he wants, he gets a bath, he gets a steak dinner. there is a place that does doggy birthday cakes, but he's not a big fan. He gets to play with the dogs he likes, because at this time he is extremely picky, and some dogs can be overwhelming for him to say the least. and of course, he gets a new toy, at least one new toy. I'm thinking about picking up his own bag of chicken treats from Costco, because he's always trying to steal those. they are the only treats he will do just about anything to get. So happy birthday Milo.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Things You Don't Ask A Woman

Sometimes, I wonder what in the world is wrong with men. I mean honestly, there are some things that men’s heads don’t grasp. For example, there are certain things that you just don’t say to women.

1. Are you okay?
Let’s be honest, I like men. I like them better than women. But if I have a problem, I don’t want to talk to you about it. And frankly, if you do that, I will probably just get pissed off.
2. Is it that time of the month?
If you don’t get this one, you’re an even bigger idiot than most guys, and that’s sad.
3. Are you really going to wear that?
First of all, yes I am, and second of all, if you are my boyfriend, the question is do you want anything. If you’re not, the question is do you really want to have that much damage inflicted?
4. I was going to call
And why exactly didn’t you? In this case, despite what you may have heard, it is not the thought that counts.
5. Your friend is hot
First, the few girlfriends I have, I am very protective over, and second, what is wrong with you! If I like you, well that’s messy, and if you’re just a friend, well if I think you’re good enough for one of my girlfriends, I would take the initiative and set you up myself, simple fact here.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

When It's Just Complicated

I started out actually having a pretty descent day. I was getting a lot done and continue to get a lot done work wise, because through the years I’ve gotten good at hiding whatever emotions I may have and getting it done, partly as a way to get through it so even in those times when I feel like just crawling into a corner and crying, I don’t. Those are extreme cases of course, so it makes it a lot easier with the small stuff. I mean there are plenty of people who I’m sure believe that emotions are a good thing, and I do too….in other people. I guess that may well be a big part of the problem with me. But I find it easier to deal with, and my emotions run far too deep, sometimes meaning that if I let it go, I can’t regain control.
But there are days, like this, when things that may be big or small, I don’t know, regardless seem crushing to me. And on those days, it is important that I keep control, at least when around others. At least when somebody might see the crack, I cannot risk it. In this case, it’s a guy I like, care about, whatever you want to choose. And I don’t know, I guess I just, I don’t know what I was thinking honestly. But when I saw him with the equivalent of another girl or rather the sign of, and it wasn’t me, it was a lot at the moment. We’re friends and I don’t want to ruin that. I haven’t told him anything. So logically, I can’t expect him to read my mind or anything. But sometimes, it just sucks being just friends, being buddies, and not wanting to ruin that or lose that. It sucks knowing that I would be perfect for him and not knowing if he sees it or not, and holding back. And then at times like this, it’s just bad.

Monday, April 20, 2009

What Is Wrong With Kids

My friend’s cute daughter started messaging me on facebook the other day, and she has some mental challenges. But she’s really sweet, and talking to her on facebook, I honestly wouldn’t have known the difference between her and one of her sisters. I could’ve sworn it was one of them in fact. But she talks to me, joking around, telling me stuff about what’s going on at home, things like that. So I figure, it’s not interrupting anything and may as well. Plus, as a kid, she posts on her facebook about how she’s bored, etc. I see kids do that all the time. I did a counselor stint at a summer camp, and since then my girls get on msn, facebook, etc, message me, chat me, stuff like that.
But something I didn’t realize. With this particular kid, apparently I’m one of two people who talks to her on facebook. That made me sad, because she’s a sweet kid, and I honestly had no idea. But I’m wondering she’s high school age. What is wrong with kids that they can’t take a minute and talk to the kid on facebook? I mean honestly. There is something wrong with high school kids, not as if there wasn’t something wrong with them when I was in high school. But seriously, what is their problem! I don’t know what’s wrong with kids, how people raise their kids, they seem to be getting snottier these days I swear. I mean what would it take to just say hi, chat a little. What would it take to be a descent person?

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Pet Hotels

They have hotels with zoos. Most of the time, you are extremely lucky to get a place that takes pets, house pets, fish, hamsters, dogs, cats, ferrets, pets. But there are some that are not only pet friendly, they’re downright wild. They have dogs you can borrow, take on walks, not have to feed because they go home at night, whatever for rent. And others have live in seals and resident giraffes.
If you are looking for the hotels, check out Kimpton hotels. They are all animal friendly, and have in room bowls and beds for your furry friends. You can even borrow a complimentary goldfish for no extra charge. And you don’t have to feed or wash out the bowls for the fish! So no crappy stuff for you, just the benefits. They even flush out your friends who have taken a permanent road out.
At the Southern Palms Beach Club, they have a parrot named Koko who has been living there for 45 years. She doesn’t speak so much, but apparently listens well, especially if you sing to her. They sent her to a zoo aviary, but she got sick and only got better when returned to the hotel grounds.
In Dubai, you can stay by a turtle resort meant to rehabilitate and save beached turtles. Guests can visit, and once better, turtles are returned to their natural habitat.
Of course, there are hotels in Hawaii that have resident turtle and seal ponds in the front. There are also places where you can swim with the seals, turtles, dolphins, or just about any other sea creature. There are even shark tanks connected to your hotel where you can pay a little more to get in there and swim with your maybe not so friendly neighborhood sharks.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Medical School To Practice Medicine

I never understood it. You apply to medical school theoretically of course to practice medicine. You apply to schools including some you never think you would get into, some you would like to theoretically go to, and some that are lower, but if they are the only ones you get into, well you go there, because the end result is hopefully the same, you are a doctor. And just incase you didn’t know, there are 2 types of medical schools. There are MD schools of course and then there are DO schools. MD schools are the ones we all know. DO schools were previously looked down upon and a second choice, but not nearly as stigmatized now.
A friend of mine applied to medical schools and a few DO schools as is customary. He is now applying for his third year, third time, and before I was under the impression that he hadn’t gotten into any. Acceptance to medical school can be rather arbitrary. It depends on what they’re looking for. They could be looking for the right things to say, the right experiences, the right grades, the right MCAT score, the right something, it always depends. I know a guy who actually got into a rather prestigious medical school that anyone would love to go to, but ironically didn’t get in anywhere else! How does that happen?
But as it turned out, he previously was accepted into a DO school, he went to the interview, because generally speaking you have to go to an interview once they decide they like you and then you get accepted or not accepted after that. They don’t come to you. If you live in a different state or area, you go to them. So basically he spent the money on the applications, he spent the money getting out there for an interview, and then he decided that he had applied there, gotten in only there, and he was too good to go there? What was the point of even applying in the first place!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Americans are Canadian Too

Are you Canadian? I know people who have dual citizenship, and not everybody necessarily understands it. I don’t have it. Sometimes you choose between two countries. Sometimes you choose the United States and sometimes you really have no desire to change citizenship. It’s not about hating one country, but rather loving another. Why pledge your citizenship to one country if you don’t feel it.
But a new law in Canada is making it even easier. Some Americans are now also Canadian, and they don’t even know it! A new amendment to the Canadian citizenship law gives citizenship back to those people who renounced their Canadian citizenship in favor of American citizenship. It also gives that citizenship to their children.
They don’t know exactly how many people will be affected by this new ammendment, just that it may well be thousands. It will happen automatically, but if someone wants proof of it, they would have to apply to find out. In short, that means if a country they have moved to does not allow dual citizenship, they will not be alerted to this change.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I Hate Anime

Why is it that white people just love anime? Is there something appealing about anything that is weird, yet Japanese? Anime sucks, and yet all the nerdy white people of the world seem to think it's the best thing since sliced bread. Granted I know some nerdy Japanese guys who like it too, but not as much as the white people.

I for one am Asian and I hate anime! I hate when their eyes go really wide whenever they get excited or something. I hate the fact that half the major anime characters were created by Japanese cartoonists and yet they are white! I hate the fact that they are cheesy. I hate the fact that in spirited away, they turn into pigs. Yes, I was forced, literally forced to watch spirited away. I will have you know it was a living nightmare for me.

And then they have anime porn. How messed up is that! I knew a guy in high school who would actually draw anime porn. What is up with that! And of course, nerdy white guy. He had his girlfriend, his anime girlfriend, all planned out, and he would tell us about all his favorite anime porns. There is something seriously wrong with anime and all the little white boys who love it when most Asians, at least that I know, don't even like it!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Dating A White Girl

Have you ever heard those Asian guys whining about why can't I get a white girl, boo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo. That is why! That is exactly why! If she doesn't date you because of your race, she's not worth your time anyway. And yes, I do realize that as women, we don't always make the best decisions. There are those white guys with what we call yellow fever. Yes men you should be grateful, because while you hate them, not as much as we do. We are the objects of their crap, you just stand on the sidelines and hate them from afar. We are the ones who get randomly attacked and crap.

But really, if you have the confidence to walk up to a girl and not play like you're so cool but just be a descent guy and she's single and not a little.....ya, you have a fair chance. If you stop obsessing about oh well I wish I could get a white girl, you might actually find a descent girl that you want to be with. She might not be white, in fact she might be Asian, black, Hispanic, Polynesian, etc. But if you stop obsessing about race, then white girls too will be more likely to not just be annoyed by you the same way we are annoyed by asiaphiles. The simple fact of the matter, no one is making it about race but you! So stop sabotaging yourself and frankly, stop making it so obvious(and this is how it looks when you whine about it)that you are such a loser!

And closing note, There are quite a few of us Asian girls who would rather date Asian guys or at least who don't care about race. We end up with white guys and other guys, because you guys refuse to step up and suck it up. We end up with other guys, because the Asian men around us are always whining about how we're traitors or how they can't get a white girl. So do you really think that we are so desperate that we want to date that? No. We would rather have another guy, who isn't Asian, who can appreciate us and treat us with some kind of respect, and more than that act like a man and an adult instead of a whiny little child.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

What About The Spirit Of The Law

So here's my question of the day, how do you "accidentally" lose your virginity? I mean if you get raped, that's not exactly accidentally losing your virginity, that's being raped. If you have sex, you have sex, period, end of story. I think Eminem put it best when he said, "what did she trip, fall, land on his dick?"

Well apparently one girl decided she was going to "save herself" for marriage. So what does she do? She only has "dry sex" with her boyfriend. Frankly, when the people who thought of the whole no sex still you're married thing thought of it, I'm assuming that they meant it to be a sacred thing, something you would follow not only to the letter of law, but in the spirit of the law. There's a grand idea. I mean would she give him blow jobs too because that's not technically sex?

Anyway, dry sex for them apparently was basically just him rubbing himself against her with or without a condom, but no penetration. Most peole look at dry sex as something has to do with still wearing the panties and so on. So apparently in one instance, it felt "different" only for him to then admit that they had sex, after it was over! Ok, so what about the panties thing first of all, that would be a part of "dry sex." But second, isn't that technically rape since she's told him before that she wanted to "save" herself and had pretty much not only not consented, but bluntly said no? Just a thought, but it seems like stupidity for one thing and rape for another.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Armored Cars

They used to make these huge armored cars that were driving targets. They were these huge beasts of cars, and they probably would've tipped over going around a corner at 15 mph. But now, they have bettered the technology, the innovations, the everything really. So now they are pimping out regular cars. My sister, upon seeing one, said even the president doesn't have that. We all assured her that he had a whole line of cars far more pimped out than that.

For starters, they can pimp out everything from a huge truck all the way down to a Chevy Cavalier. That's some pretty impressive stuff. You get bullet proof glass, the steel plated doors, the works. Then, they have ones that throw out little stars to pop tires, and they even have full on machine guns that come out of the roof. I mean these are not just defensive cars, they go on the offensive! I love the idea of armored cars, but it's some scary stuff.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

11 Year Old Suicide After Homophobic Taunts

Whatever happened to love, charity, acceptance, tolerance? I guess they're all the ways of hell or something. Carl Joseph Walker-Hoover, an 11 year old boy, was found hung by an electrical cord from a beam in his home. Apparently attributed to suicide, the boy had undergone multiple taunts from his classmates at the New Leadership Charter school about being gay. Apparently, they told him on a regular basis, "You're gay, you must be gay, you act like a girl." The boy's mother had repeatedly called and met with school administrators every week for 6 months before the suicide.

On the day of his suicide, he came home and told his mother that he had bumped into a girl who proceeded to shout at him and threaten him, at which point he was suspended for 5 days. School officials are saying they never suspended the boy, but obviously we don't know for sure, and they're the only ones still talking. But they have admitted that he was punished for the talked about incident. I am wondering why he was the one punished?

This is a prime example of what is happening in our schools, what is happening in our society, what kind of crap parents are teaching their kids, and the effect it is having on kids, innocent kids. I mean if we cannot turn to the administrators of our schools to provide a safe haven, what do we do. In this case, he did have the support of his mother, but some kids don't even have that. People who really are gay face a barrage of physical, emotional, and psychological attacks on a regular basis, just as those kids who who are of a different race, family background, religion, etc. And in every case it is horrible. In every case, it is tragic. In every case, there is someone hurting, and it's not right. It's because of what some parents are willfully teaching their children about what is right and what is wrong.

I remember my school days and those of a few people I cared about. We had ice cubes thrown at us when we first started attending a certain high school, because they had never seen an Asian person, let alone a Korean person. A child I knew when he was in elementary school was beat up on a regular basis and then suspended for being beat up, and he was beat up because he was Asian. He was suspended, because the administrator apparently felt the same way. His parents had grown up white, they had never had certain issues, and frankly, they treated him like he was a trouble maker making stories up. We all saw the bruises, the scars, the medical records of the times when he had to go to the hospital because they shot a bone with a beebee gun or something else. Likewise, my parents thought that I was being too sensitive and I was just being a baby. they thought that when I came home crying every day, I was an overly sensitive child and I should just learn to ignore them and they would go away, stop. My bullies never stopped, and the more I ignored them, the worse it got, until senior year when it really flourished and I couldn't go to school without being taunted, threatened, treated like I was a terrorist, actually called a terrorist, because apparently South Koreans were just North Korean spies. I appealed to school administrators, I appealed to my parents, I appealed to teachers that were standing right there when some of the incidents happened, and it was honestly amazing how much they could ignore. Finally, I came to my wits end, not knowing what else to do, I talked to their parents. In one case, he was actually a friend of my mom's, and he had been to Korea on an extended trip for studies and so on. So he was mortified. He apologized to my mom over and over again, and he also had terminal cancer. But after that, it stopped. I picked out my main bullies, because I didn't know what else to do, and I functioned under the assumption that they were jerks with parents that had taught them better, but didn't know.

I have to say, I hope the torturers of this boy have the same kinds of parents. My parents weren't inclined to step to my aid when I called. But when parents find out that their children are doing certain things, they react more efficiently sometimes and not so much other times. Some would blame the victim. In my case, it was so extreme I feared for my safety, and obviously so did this boy. My guess is that his parents made him dress well, pull up his pants, comb his hair, get good grades, work hard on any school teams he wanted to be on, be a good citizen. But evidently, kids in his school thought that put him in a seat below them, and they acted accordingly.

I hope that the parents of these kids don't try to apologize to his mother now, because that is something that would probably only hurt more. If I were her, I might be angry at them, even though they didn't do it, because they did not control their kids and teach their kids better. I would be extremely angry at administrators. I would be livid actually in a lot of ways. And frankly, parents apologizing isn't going to bring this boy who would've been 12 in just a few days back, it's not going to reverse what their kids did, it's not going to reverse the inaction or inappropriate actions of school administrators. But I hope the parents of these kids get involved, pay more attention to exactly what their kids are doing in and out of the home, and something changes in that school. It's a horrible way to make a difference, and a horrible thing to happen. But things have to change, at that school and at every school, at every workplace, etc.